The author reflects on their experience with the video game Trails in the Sky 1st Chapter, specifically the final boss battle. They recount how they spent a month avoiding the boss, fearing failure and the loss of progress. This avoidance led to a sense of regret and frustration, as they eventually overcame the boss with ease after picking up the game again. The author explores the psychological and emotional aspects of their behavior, attributing it to a fear of failure and a desire to avoid the disappointment of losing again. They also discuss the impact of real-life obligations and the perceived constraints surrounding them on their gaming habits. The article highlights the author's realization of their irrational behavior and the importance of overcoming personal challenges in gaming. It also touches on the broader theme of the emotional connection people form with video games and the impact of prolonged play on their lives.